Update!!!

Wow, it.s been damn near a year since I.ve been on here. ForGIVE me. What has happened in my life in these 11 months.

I got promoted at work after being their for 9 months. I bought a brand new car and then that night had bullets fly over my head. Talk about being at the wrong place at the wrong time. I.m having a son in May. (If it.s a girl, I might cry. I don.t know what to do with a girl.) My best friend is having her son any day now. My sister graduates December 17th, 2011. My mommy graduates December 17, 2012. Asia turned 21. My brother BJ became a teenager (gross). I went to Miami with my best friend and the love of my life and had a BLAST! I was accepted to be apart of one of the BADDEST and most TALENTED team in Nashville, 2lsonacloud.com! (BLESSED to have them.) My Lakers DID get blown out by the Maverick.s who went on to win it all. My president is tobacco free. I got EXTREMELY intoxicated the weekend Kevin Hart came to Nashville but got to tell him how much his comedy meant to me so....it all balances out. I lost mad weight! Last time I checked, I was 153. I plan on maintaining this because my tummy looks yummy.

Even with the petty bullshit that has my name attached to it, 2011 for me was overall grand. Trying to get my life back on track so my brothers can look up to me. I want to be their role model. The person that they say, "It may have been unconventional but my sister did it and succeeded." Yeah, this is my 2012 goal....good grades, less bullshit, more growth as a woman, Christian, girlfriend, daughter, writer, sister, friend, teammate. I have an AWESOME bunch of people I can call friends....family. EVERYBODY is walking in the right direction to be who they want to be in life and even if they are stuck, they aren.t doing bad for themselves. I.m proud of each and every one of yas.

She Said It Best....

@ZanitaApplebumm The world is too big and holds too much mystery to stay in the same spot mentally or physically #grow


My friends are so damn intelligent it scares me. I love it. They keep me on my toesys.

March 8.

My honey has been a busy body lately trying to get this new project out to his fans. Lord knows I.m geeked waiting for this project to drop. After an extended battle with the Atlantic, Lupe Fiasco.s next project is on its way. "LASERS", in my book, is HIGHLY anticipated. After wearing "The Cool" down to almost nothing, I.ve been forced to wait for this drop and I.ve actually been pretty patient about about it, surprisingly. After hearing "I.m Beaming" last year, I just KNEW what he was going to deliver was going to be dope. So while I wait for March 8th, I.ll reminisce with "The Cool" and "Food & Liquor". *sigh, pouts*


I love his being.

RIP Jordan Rice

Came home from work and decided to chill on the computer. Log on and the first thing I see on yahoo.com: "Tragic Hero of Australian Floods". I clicked on it to find out more on this story. Jordan Rice, 13, was in the car with his mom and his little brother were in their car at tire-level water when the engine stopped. They got on top of the car and waited to be rescued. When they finally where rescued, Jordan asked that his brother, Blake, be rescued before him. Jordan and his mother Donna were swept away by the floods and drowned. A VERY heroic gesture from somebody so young yet full of heart. Jordan couldn.t swim and was terrified of water yet he asked for his brother to be saved before him. Interesting. Commendable. My heart goes out to his family, especially Blake. He is blessed to see another day knowing that his brother took an exceptional measure for him and his life. If you were in this position, what would have you done?

Full story: http://news.yahoo.com/s/yblog_upshot/20110113/ts_yblog_upshot/boy-saved-brothers-life-in-australian-flood

Allow Me To Defend Myself....

For 5 months now, I.ve been in a pretty decent relationship. My boyfriend has an ex girlfriend who initially wasn.t thrilled about all of this. The issue started when she tweeted him and said:

"@MissTubbles
@boonchi07 your a fucking liar all u do is lie so I hope you and your follower are having fun cause when I find out who she is..... "

An empty threat, yes but I.ve been through a similar situation with an ex boyfriend. The only reason I didn.t step up in that situation is because she was the mother of his son and I respected his child too much to cause mayhem. So I took her verbal abuse and let her tell it, I feared her. I couldn.t allow that to happen in this situation. I.ve grown up a lot but something such as that, was unnecessary. I let her know that I am with the shit. And then the feud began.

She was at our job and strangely enough, expected me to fight. Where I make my money, seriously? Negative. She even called her aunt and told her God knows what because THE funniest voicemail was left on my boyfriends phone from the aunt saying that we were threatening lives and she could have us erased and yadda, yadda, yadda. I don.t play with life and death so I.m not sure where that came from.

Back and forth on twitter we went. I know, childish. But at the time, it was hilarious. But then shit started to get real.

I won.t go into ALL the details because at this point, it.s he say/she say. Just know this. I have NO reason to play on anybody.s phone. I am 22 years old. If I wanted to contact anybody, I.d pick up my phone and dial his or her number. I don.t talk on the phone ANYway these days unless it.s my mommy or my brothers sssoooo maybe that was somebody ELSE playing on your phone. I don.t mind getting my phone records and validating my words.

As far as me living my life on twitter...............no words. Yes, I was being petty on twitter for a short while but we off that. ALL my tweets aren.t directed towards a certain individual. I care NOT to explain this furthermore.

You want ME to come to YOU like an adult but you.re the one who feels the need to say something to me. I.m not going to go out of my way to contact you, that.s dumb. I have nothing to say to you other than I wish you all the best in life and I hope you obtain everything that you desire. Oh and FYI, HE doesn.t tell me what I can and cannot say on twitter. I.m not really sure WHERE you got that from but MY email is on the twitter account. I.ll say whatever in the hell I please.

As far as me thinking you.re a hoe, don.t take it personal. It.s a word that means (in my dictionary) someone I do not respect. You.ve pulled a stunt or two here lately in less than a month that would make ANYONE lose respect for ANYBODY. The lies you planted are the same lies you run from. I.d give you my opinion but you.re really not trying to hear it.

But I.ve spoken some of my peace and I did it with a smile on my face and my nerves really relaxed....and I wasn.t messy about it either. Proud of ME!

-With Regards, Dyf-

Niggas Lie A Lot....

"For every good reason there is to lie, there is a better reason to tell the truth."

Bo Bennett


Lies. Something I don.t think I can tolerate. No, I know I can.t. I played the part of a fool in love blinded by…..what in the fuck was I blinded by? More questions than answers but I digress. I just can.t handle when people lie. It.s like, what.s your point? I mean, you have your variations of how serious a lie is. For instance, “I have a stomach virus so I won.t be able to make it into work today.” THOSE lies, I understand. The ones that throw me for a loop are, “She.s just a friend” or “He ain.t shit. I.m not fuckin with him anymore”. Sssoooo, I guess I look like a moron huh? I just don.t understand what is SO hard about telling the truth. I feel like people choose not to tell me things because they assume I.m going to react a certain way. You rob me of that choice when you decide to lie. If it.s something that could potentially hurt me, I.m not going to act an ass, especially in public. I don.t need to cause a scene. I don.t know, maybe I.m overthinking about this, but this is what I do best.

And what the hell is up with people trying to be sneaky these days? There.s ALWAYS that big mouth sucka who is going to give it or themselves away by bragging. Nothing is a secret anymore and that is so sad. I.ve learned that if I ever want some of my personal business to stay a secret, I will tell nobody but God. I have a lot of people come to me in confidence with personal information. I always keep it to myself because I KNOW what it feels like when your secret gets told and you.re left for the world to see a part of your soul you never expected them to see. And they stare. And wisper. And assume they know you when only they know the outcome. Never did they ask what you went through to get to that conclusion. And 10 times out of 9, they.ve fabricated a lie that is so off the wall that you try to wrap your mind about how they came up with that ridiculous concept. Lies. It.s funny the damage they do when the truth was going to hurt 6 times less that what you just put them through.

I.m convinced that our society is cool with all the lies. I just can.t get jiggy with that shit. Tell me the truth. Have faith in me that I will be able to handle it like a mature adult, don.t cancel me out by lying. I swear I.m just going to just join the club.

Quote of the Day

“He who asks a question is a fool for five minutes; he who does not ask a question remains a fool forever”

Chinese Proverb

So all I want to know, is ya happy? *T.I. voice*