Love me.
Love me and only me. Treat me with the same respect that you want me to treat you. Know that I am NOT your last. Be true to me because I will be true to you.
The little things count.
A kiss on the forehead. A compliment. Notice when I.m stressed out. Hold my hand. MAKE ME A MEAL.
Trust. Honesty. Respect. Loyality. COMMUNICATION! These are all the things [and more] that are going to make our relationship last.
I look at being in a relationship as being on a team. We.re co-captains. Together, we call all the plays, WE make all the shots...decision makers. It is never mine or yours, it is ours. If there is a disagreement, let.s compromise and come to a conclusion...TOGETHER. I feel like people lose site of the fact that when you are in a relationship, you make decisions as a team. I understand the fact of wanting to do things on your own, and that is fine. But if it.s for the benefit for the love and bond that the two of you have, then you need to do what you gotta do.
I.m in NOBODYs good relationship right now but I.m pretty sure I.d follow my own rules if I were in one...because I have before. I don.t go to sleep angry because who knows what tomorrow may bring. I don.t do the petty arguing because that.s just lame in itself. I don.t bring up the past because it DOES affect the current...and future.
...to be continued...
iLost all train of thought! lol
04 December 2009
03 December 2009
Saying Goodbye...Finally
Lately, my mind has been on a rampage. I got this door that I so desperately need closed, yet I don.t know how. For the past 4 years, this door has been open. Looking through the door, I remember all the good times we.ve had. The laughs, the talks, the times that we.ve shared. But I don.t know the person on the other side of the door anymore. I don.t know who you are!
I wanted to fight for you. I wanted to show YOU that I could be...but I gave up. I didn.t see the need to fight. I didn.t see the need to try and work it out. I didn.t see the need to remind you of our love. I just didn.t see the need.
So I have the chance to close this chapter. I have made MANY mistakes in this chapter but I regret nothing. I.m more selective now. I.m more feisty now. I do not trust as easily now. None of these are bad things because had I not been an air head, I would have paid better attention to your mistakes instead of overlooking them.
A friendship as great as ours, is lost. I cannot endure it with you anymore because I do not trust you...anymore. But I hope you are happy with the decisions you have made. Although I do not understand ANY of this, I have come to learn that it is not meant for me to understand. I can no longer block the truth from my eyesight and my heart because at the end of the day, "it is what it is".
So Dear Door,
I tried to push you with all my might to get you to close and I just came to the realization that it is not force that is the trick. It.s time, understanding, and healing that does it. I.ve cried my tears, I.ve screamed as loud as I can. And after bearing my soul, I now see you closing faster now then before. If the person on the other side tries to open it again, he.ll be in for a rude awakening. It.s locked and has no intention on opening back up anytime soon.
:-)
I wanted to fight for you. I wanted to show YOU that I could be...but I gave up. I didn.t see the need to fight. I didn.t see the need to try and work it out. I didn.t see the need to remind you of our love. I just didn.t see the need.
So I have the chance to close this chapter. I have made MANY mistakes in this chapter but I regret nothing. I.m more selective now. I.m more feisty now. I do not trust as easily now. None of these are bad things because had I not been an air head, I would have paid better attention to your mistakes instead of overlooking them.
A friendship as great as ours, is lost. I cannot endure it with you anymore because I do not trust you...anymore. But I hope you are happy with the decisions you have made. Although I do not understand ANY of this, I have come to learn that it is not meant for me to understand. I can no longer block the truth from my eyesight and my heart because at the end of the day, "it is what it is".
So Dear Door,
I tried to push you with all my might to get you to close and I just came to the realization that it is not force that is the trick. It.s time, understanding, and healing that does it. I.ve cried my tears, I.ve screamed as loud as I can. And after bearing my soul, I now see you closing faster now then before. If the person on the other side tries to open it again, he.ll be in for a rude awakening. It.s locked and has no intention on opening back up anytime soon.
:-)
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