@ZanitaApplebumm The world is too big and holds too much mystery to stay in the same spot mentally or physically #grow
My friends are so damn intelligent it scares me. I love it. They keep me on my toesys.
14 January 2011
March 8.
My honey has been a busy body lately trying to get this new project out to his fans. Lord knows I.m geeked waiting for this project to drop. After an extended battle with the Atlantic, Lupe Fiasco.s next project is on its way. "LASERS", in my book, is HIGHLY anticipated. After wearing "The Cool" down to almost nothing, I.ve been forced to wait for this drop and I.ve actually been pretty patient about about it, surprisingly. After hearing "I.m Beaming" last year, I just KNEW what he was going to deliver was going to be dope. So while I wait for March 8th, I.ll reminisce with "The Cool" and "Food & Liquor". *sigh, pouts*
I love his being.13 January 2011
RIP Jordan Rice
Came home from work and decided to chill on the computer. Log on and the first thing I see on yahoo.com: "Tragic Hero of Australian Floods". I clicked on it to find out more on this story. Jordan Rice, 13, was in the car with his mom and his little brother were in their car at tire-level water when the engine stopped. They got on top of the car and waited to be rescued. When they finally where rescued, Jordan asked that his brother, Blake, be rescued before him. Jordan and his mother Donna were swept away by the floods and drowned. A VERY heroic gesture from somebody so young yet full of heart. Jordan couldn.t swim and was terrified of water yet he asked for his brother to be saved before him. Interesting. Commendable. My heart goes out to his family, especially Blake. He is blessed to see another day knowing that his brother took an exceptional measure for him and his life. If you were in this position, what would have you done?
11 January 2011
Allow Me To Defend Myself....
For 5 months now, I.ve been in a pretty decent relationship. My boyfriend has an ex girlfriend who initially wasn.t thrilled about all of this. The issue started when she tweeted him and said:
"@MissTubbles
@boonchi07 your a fucking liar all u do is lie so I hope you and your follower are having fun cause when I find out who she is..... "
An empty threat, yes but I.ve been through a similar situation with an ex boyfriend. The only reason I didn.t step up in that situation is because she was the mother of his son and I respected his child too much to cause mayhem. So I took her verbal abuse and let her tell it, I feared her. I couldn.t allow that to happen in this situation. I.ve grown up a lot but something such as that, was unnecessary. I let her know that I am with the shit. And then the feud began.
She was at our job and strangely enough, expected me to fight. Where I make my money, seriously? Negative. She even called her aunt and told her God knows what because THE funniest voicemail was left on my boyfriends phone from the aunt saying that we were threatening lives and she could have us erased and yadda, yadda, yadda. I don.t play with life and death so I.m not sure where that came from.
Back and forth on twitter we went. I know, childish. But at the time, it was hilarious. But then shit started to get real.
I won.t go into ALL the details because at this point, it.s he say/she say. Just know this. I have NO reason to play on anybody.s phone. I am 22 years old. If I wanted to contact anybody, I.d pick up my phone and dial his or her number. I don.t talk on the phone ANYway these days unless it.s my mommy or my brothers sssoooo maybe that was somebody ELSE playing on your phone. I don.t mind getting my phone records and validating my words.
As far as me living my life on twitter...............no words. Yes, I was being petty on twitter for a short while but we off that. ALL my tweets aren.t directed towards a certain individual. I care NOT to explain this furthermore.
You want ME to come to YOU like an adult but you.re the one who feels the need to say something to me. I.m not going to go out of my way to contact you, that.s dumb. I have nothing to say to you other than I wish you all the best in life and I hope you obtain everything that you desire. Oh and FYI, HE doesn.t tell me what I can and cannot say on twitter. I.m not really sure WHERE you got that from but MY email is on the twitter account. I.ll say whatever in the hell I please.
As far as me thinking you.re a hoe, don.t take it personal. It.s a word that means (in my dictionary) someone I do not respect. You.ve pulled a stunt or two here lately in less than a month that would make ANYONE lose respect for ANYBODY. The lies you planted are the same lies you run from. I.d give you my opinion but you.re really not trying to hear it.
But I.ve spoken some of my peace and I did it with a smile on my face and my nerves really relaxed....and I wasn.t messy about it either. Proud of ME!
"@MissTubbles
@boonchi07 your a fucking liar all u do is lie so I hope you and your follower are having fun cause when I find out who she is..... "
An empty threat, yes but I.ve been through a similar situation with an ex boyfriend. The only reason I didn.t step up in that situation is because she was the mother of his son and I respected his child too much to cause mayhem. So I took her verbal abuse and let her tell it, I feared her. I couldn.t allow that to happen in this situation. I.ve grown up a lot but something such as that, was unnecessary. I let her know that I am with the shit. And then the feud began.
She was at our job and strangely enough, expected me to fight. Where I make my money, seriously? Negative. She even called her aunt and told her God knows what because THE funniest voicemail was left on my boyfriends phone from the aunt saying that we were threatening lives and she could have us erased and yadda, yadda, yadda. I don.t play with life and death so I.m not sure where that came from.
Back and forth on twitter we went. I know, childish. But at the time, it was hilarious. But then shit started to get real.
I won.t go into ALL the details because at this point, it.s he say/she say. Just know this. I have NO reason to play on anybody.s phone. I am 22 years old. If I wanted to contact anybody, I.d pick up my phone and dial his or her number. I don.t talk on the phone ANYway these days unless it.s my mommy or my brothers sssoooo maybe that was somebody ELSE playing on your phone. I don.t mind getting my phone records and validating my words.
As far as me living my life on twitter...............no words. Yes, I was being petty on twitter for a short while but we off that. ALL my tweets aren.t directed towards a certain individual. I care NOT to explain this furthermore.
You want ME to come to YOU like an adult but you.re the one who feels the need to say something to me. I.m not going to go out of my way to contact you, that.s dumb. I have nothing to say to you other than I wish you all the best in life and I hope you obtain everything that you desire. Oh and FYI, HE doesn.t tell me what I can and cannot say on twitter. I.m not really sure WHERE you got that from but MY email is on the twitter account. I.ll say whatever in the hell I please.
As far as me thinking you.re a hoe, don.t take it personal. It.s a word that means (in my dictionary) someone I do not respect. You.ve pulled a stunt or two here lately in less than a month that would make ANYONE lose respect for ANYBODY. The lies you planted are the same lies you run from. I.d give you my opinion but you.re really not trying to hear it.
But I.ve spoken some of my peace and I did it with a smile on my face and my nerves really relaxed....and I wasn.t messy about it either. Proud of ME!
-With Regards, Dyf-
10 January 2011
Niggas Lie A Lot....
"For every good reason there is to lie, there is a better reason to tell the truth."
Bo Bennett
Lies. Something I don.t think I can tolerate. No, I know I can.t. I played the part of a fool in love blinded by…..what in the fuck was I blinded by? More questions than answers but I digress. I just can.t handle when people lie. It.s like, what.s your point? I mean, you have your variations of how serious a lie is. For instance, “I have a stomach virus so I won.t be able to make it into work today.” THOSE lies, I understand. The ones that throw me for a loop are, “She.s just a friend” or “He ain.t shit. I.m not fuckin with him anymore”. Sssoooo, I guess I look like a moron huh? I just don.t understand what is SO hard about telling the truth. I feel like people choose not to tell me things because they assume I.m going to react a certain way. You rob me of that choice when you decide to lie. If it.s something that could potentially hurt me, I.m not going to act an ass, especially in public. I don.t need to cause a scene. I don.t know, maybe I.m overthinking about this, but this is what I do best.
And what the hell is up with people trying to be sneaky these days? There.s ALWAYS that big mouth sucka who is going to give it or themselves away by bragging. Nothing is a secret anymore and that is so sad. I.ve learned that if I ever want some of my personal business to stay a secret, I will tell nobody but God. I have a lot of people come to me in confidence with personal information. I always keep it to myself because I KNOW what it feels like when your secret gets told and you.re left for the world to see a part of your soul you never expected them to see. And they stare. And wisper. And assume they know you when only they know the outcome. Never did they ask what you went through to get to that conclusion. And 10 times out of 9, they.ve fabricated a lie that is so off the wall that you try to wrap your mind about how they came up with that ridiculous concept. Lies. It.s funny the damage they do when the truth was going to hurt 6 times less that what you just put them through.
I.m convinced that our society is cool with all the lies. I just can.t get jiggy with that shit. Tell me the truth. Have faith in me that I will be able to handle it like a mature adult, don.t cancel me out by lying. I swear I.m just going to just join the club.
Lies. Something I don.t think I can tolerate. No, I know I can.t. I played the part of a fool in love blinded by…..what in the fuck was I blinded by? More questions than answers but I digress. I just can.t handle when people lie. It.s like, what.s your point? I mean, you have your variations of how serious a lie is. For instance, “I have a stomach virus so I won.t be able to make it into work today.” THOSE lies, I understand. The ones that throw me for a loop are, “She.s just a friend” or “He ain.t shit. I.m not fuckin with him anymore”. Sssoooo, I guess I look like a moron huh? I just don.t understand what is SO hard about telling the truth. I feel like people choose not to tell me things because they assume I.m going to react a certain way. You rob me of that choice when you decide to lie. If it.s something that could potentially hurt me, I.m not going to act an ass, especially in public. I don.t need to cause a scene. I don.t know, maybe I.m overthinking about this, but this is what I do best.
And what the hell is up with people trying to be sneaky these days? There.s ALWAYS that big mouth sucka who is going to give it or themselves away by bragging. Nothing is a secret anymore and that is so sad. I.ve learned that if I ever want some of my personal business to stay a secret, I will tell nobody but God. I have a lot of people come to me in confidence with personal information. I always keep it to myself because I KNOW what it feels like when your secret gets told and you.re left for the world to see a part of your soul you never expected them to see. And they stare. And wisper. And assume they know you when only they know the outcome. Never did they ask what you went through to get to that conclusion. And 10 times out of 9, they.ve fabricated a lie that is so off the wall that you try to wrap your mind about how they came up with that ridiculous concept. Lies. It.s funny the damage they do when the truth was going to hurt 6 times less that what you just put them through.
I.m convinced that our society is cool with all the lies. I just can.t get jiggy with that shit. Tell me the truth. Have faith in me that I will be able to handle it like a mature adult, don.t cancel me out by lying. I swear I.m just going to just join the club.
09 January 2011
Smart Is The New Gangsta
I was introduced to dangerousNEGRO my senior year of high school. I was blown away because everything I.d thought about the snowman "I Got It For Cheap" shirts, this company shined a positive light with their appearal. My freshman year of college, one of the co-founders Demetrius Walker came to ETSU [&&] talked to us during our Multicultural Affairs week. How he [&&] his counterparts started this business is amazing. Tired of cooperate America, Demetrius quit his job (which after working there, I COMPLETELY understand why) [&&] began to make his dream a reality.
I respect what this company is doing. For some strange reason our own people forget where we came from [&&] what our ansestors went through to get us to this point. I respect any and every one who has come from nothing [&&] decided not to be a sterotype. dangerousNEGRO.s appearal makes me feel strong. With sayings like "Smart Is The New Gangsta" and "America's Next Top ROLE Model" I feel like I am apart of a positive image for people in my community.
The website http://www.dangerousnegro.com/ offers different designs for shirts, hats, [&&] has
even expanded with books [&&] music. As long as this company wants to be a positive outlook for our community, I will continue to support it. I already have 4 shirts, 1 I designed myself. This blog is just to show my appreciation. Thank you.
even expanded with books [&&] music. As long as this company wants to be a positive outlook for our community, I will continue to support it. I already have 4 shirts, 1 I designed myself. This blog is just to show my appreciation. Thank you.Lupe Fiasco.s quote, I love him. --->
Beautiful Struggle
I use to cut corners. I use try to take the easy way out. If there was a short cut, I was ALL for that. But now I know that.s not how it.s supposed to go. You can.t learn what God is trying to teach you by taking the easy way out. You can.t appreciate the lesson for what it is by cheating the system. It took me forever to understand this [&&] appreciate it for a whole. No short cuts. Not in 2011. I.ve learned a number of lessons in the past 4 years alone that I.ll never forget. Although I am studying to be a teacher, I know that learning for me never stops. I have great friends who teach me something almost everyday. I.m thankful for that. For every struggle that I went through [&&] balled my eyes out, I.m thankful. I understand NOW what I couldn.t comprehend THEN.
08 January 2011
2 Quotes....Pay Attention
"I like marriage. The idea."
Toni Morrison (Howard University graduate, author)
"Decide that you want it more than you are afraid of it."
Bill Cosby (Comedian)
=) Loving Moi
I remember when people tried to shut me down because they didn.t like how I looked.I laugh at it now because of how silly I was.
I can.t fix my flaws.
[&&] I.m full of them.
I.ve accepted me as is.
Far from perfect.
I.ll love me until the time.
I can point out 15 things wrong with this photo
but why shouldn.t I be?
I love it.
Shouldn.t that be all that matters?
-Shrug, Dyf-
On My Come Up
*smirks*
Funny how much growth can happen in a year.
A year ago, I didn.t have a solid [&&] sensible plan.
I had a job for the first time in ALL my life, I loved it.
Beginning to end.
Working with children confirmed my career.
I learned A LOT.
I feel like it was the start of my growth.
This is the time when I did a lot of reflection.
Mustering up a conclusion for all of life.s unsolved mystery.
Spring Break 2010 is where I broke out.
Allowed me to begin to get back to me.
Lost my mind that whole week only to find it mid drinking.
Looking back to who I was just 365 days ago [&&] seeing improvement now,
I.m on my serious come up.
I.m more appreciative.
More understanding.
More aware.
Some of this can get me into trouble, but so I still march on.
Doing me.
Not caring what people say because I KNOW that I.m doing what makes ME happy.
I feel I.ve matured as an individual.
So I.ll just live my life exactly how I want to.
I have plans [&&] see them becoming my reality.
[&&] I.m damn proud of me.
Funny how much growth can happen in a year.
A year ago, I didn.t have a solid [&&] sensible plan.
I had a job for the first time in ALL my life, I loved it.
Beginning to end.
Working with children confirmed my career.
I learned A LOT.
I feel like it was the start of my growth.
This is the time when I did a lot of reflection.
Mustering up a conclusion for all of life.s unsolved mystery.
Spring Break 2010 is where I broke out.
Allowed me to begin to get back to me.
Lost my mind that whole week only to find it mid drinking.
Looking back to who I was just 365 days ago [&&] seeing improvement now,
I.m on my serious come up.
I.m more appreciative.
More understanding.
More aware.
Some of this can get me into trouble, but so I still march on.
Doing me.
Not caring what people say because I KNOW that I.m doing what makes ME happy.
I feel I.ve matured as an individual.
So I.ll just live my life exactly how I want to.
I have plans [&&] see them becoming my reality.
[&&] I.m damn proud of me.
"What other people think of you is none of your business"
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