It.s 2010 and I feel the need to start being honest with myself. I have NO problem telling others the truth, but for some reason, I couldn.t tell me the truth if my LIFE depended on it. Two years ago, I was on my way of falling in love. It scared the HELL out of me so I switched my game up. Sad, I know, but at the time, it just seemed like the logical thing to do. -shrugs-

Two years later, I am "proud" to say, I fear love. Please don.t get it twisted, I don.t fear being happy. I.m happy as we speak. But I feel love is on a different playing field than I.m use to. I know the basics of a relationship (or so I THINK I know) and I understand that it is a lot of time, work, and dedication. All of that, I can handle. But when you throw love in the mix, I gotta bail out. That.s more trust, understanding, compromising, and teamwork that I am use to. I feel like it.s harder to love now because most people are on this whole "all about me" high. I.ve seen people do some shady things and I.ve always said that if somebody hurt me like some of my friends have been hurt, I don.t think I.d really be able to recover from that.

My father cheated on my mother and by the grace of God she was able to move on. It took her forever and a day but she did it. I.m a little more fragile. I just don.t see it happeneing. So until somebody understands this FEAR...I.ll remain single.